cranky-pants

so apparently i have forgotten how to relax. my first DAY OFF with nowhere to go since november ... and i had a good day, don't get me wrong. but i spent the majority of my day crocheting a little amigurumi mouse and it's just not turning out the way i had hoped. i can't find the right eyes so i made some out of yarn ... and it's ok but not great. and i am struggling with the arms and legs cuz they are just so tiny and i feel so clumsy with my big stupid fingers. and of course, since it didn't turn out the way i wanted, i feel like i wasted my day off. and now it's 11pm and i am cranky cuz i feel like i wasted my day and i have to go to bed soon and go to work tomorrow ... *sigh* it's a vicious cycle. so now here i sit with a big mug of hot chocolate (cranky cuz i forgot to buy marshmallows!) and am trying to salvage the day. why can't i just be happy that i had a nice lazy day off with dave?!?! ugh!!

i think i will try it again with a bigger needle. i like the tiny size but i am just struggling so much with the small needle. *sigh*!!!!!!

ramblings during a relaxing evening at home!

don't ya just love the cupcake? i think she turned out so cute!!! ever since i followed a knitting pattern for dave's wool hat, i thought i would try my hand at the adorable crocheted amigurumi i've admired for awhile. this little gal only took me a total of 2 hours!! i need a lighter shade of tan yarn for the base ... it came out a little too dark for the eyes and mouth. but other than that, i am pretty pleased with her! :) i can't wait to make others to put in my etsy shop! keep your eyes peeled!!

the holidays were wonderfully sweet but oh so exhausting. i love christmas so much ... and i did very good this year with early shopping and a bunch of handmade items for friends and family ... but i was just going a mile a minute everyday ... and work was just silly! 9 to 10 hour days 6 days a week! i am not complaining because i am very thankful to have a job during these scary economic times. i know how blessed and lucky i am. but between that and social engagements and family gatherings ... i just didn't have a moment to really sit back and enjoy the season! tonight is the first night i can just sit on the couch and look at the christmas tree and relax ... and it's all gotta come down in a few days!!! whew!!

but, as crystal mentioned in her http://littlebitfunky.blogspot.com/">blog, as enjoyable as the holiday season is and how much fun it is to decorate the home all cozy christmas ... there is just something about getting everything all back to clean and normal. and you better believe i am looking forward to lazy days off and quiet evenings in. :o)

i will be spending the coming weeks updating my blog with new items and musings and i will be working very hard on adding a bunch of new items to etsy. i have so many ideas and things i want to make and share ... i'm so excited!! :)

christmas!

it's been a tough week for a variety of reasons ... work stress, divorce hearing, anxiety and fear about life and relationships like i haven't had in a long time, a bit of a ... fight ... with dave ... but today was just filled with holiday sweetness. waking up to a dusting of snow on the ground, yummy breakfast at my favorite local place, dave and i then going to get our tree and then going home to set it up while christmas music (and then the football game!) played in the background. it was ... refreshing to be with someone who actually WANTED to help out with the tree ... it was fun and sweet to decorate the apartment with the rest of the holiday stuff ... it's so nice to be home in my cozy home while the wind whips around outside, a kitty on the couch next to me, a hockey game on the tv (go Rangers!!) and my tree lit up and completing the cozy holiday home! as soon as i finish this i will proceed to knit some christmas presents!!

so crystal at littlebitfunky took some pictures of what christmas is like at her house ... and requested her blog readers to do the same! so here are some pictures i took! :) hope you enjoy them!

the tree

some of my grandmother's christmas village houses the my grandfather gave me after my grammy passed away.

and that's my home! :)

have a wonderful week!

holiday hiatus

it's been awhile since i've updated so i wanted to take some time to write. my traffic on etsy has slowed to next to nothing ... but i have been so busy with work that i haven't been able to create anything new. it's frustrating because i have a ton of ideas ... especially gift ideas for friends and family as well as things to list on etsy ... but i come home from my days at the bookstore beyond exhausted. i just don't have any time these days.

i am also in a little bit of hiding because of the emotional state i'm in. my divorce becomes official on wednesday and has sent me back onto the emotional rollercoaster. dave has been absolutely phenominal ... so patient, so kind, so loving...just like the bible verse! but my fears and emotions run away with themselves and scares me into thinking that maybe the love and life i seek don't exsist. i'm so tired of being mired in this ... and am really looking forward to closing this door of my life.

i am planning on continuing etsy and my craft business ... i have big plans for 2009! new products, new directions, new life!

i'll definately be peeking in now and then ... until then, however, please have a wonderful holiday season!